It’s been a little more than a month since my last post, I think. I’ve changed my name and turned 25, so it’s about time for that quarter-life crisis. I haven’t felt compelled to write here for several reasons, but the biggest is because I’m not sure how big of a role this plays in my life at this point in time. Below is a post written by Danielle on her blog Sometimes Sweet. It fits well with part of my own issues on writing, sharing and, frankly, the drought that has been my creative life for quite some time. I don’t know when I’ll post again, but I will be happy to share your posts if you get in touch. - LM
“Writing has always been a huge part of my life, then and now. I think about this space and it’s a bit different, as far as what I share and when. I typically steer clear from really getting into things that bother me- I try to keep it light and breezy. I try to walk a line between sharing and sharing too much, but there are times where I feel inauthentic because I’ll catch myself toning down my happiness, or putting on a cheerful face when I’m not, including or omitting something when I have my audience in mind. It’s easy to write when no one is reading. My challenge at times is trying to find that authentic voice, even though there is that audience.
At times I want to say so much more. I want to talk about how upset I feel about a certain difficult situation that I’ll always have to deal with, and always have to take the high road. I want to talk about how grateful I feel for this life with Hank and Henry that it makes me want to cry. I want to talk about how sometimes I feel silly blogging because I don’t always have fun and interesting things to talk about. I want to discuss how the biggest thing I am working on is not feeling guilty for things. I want to go on and on about how disgusted I feel by old friends who think being homosexual is “wrong,” and I want to talk about how I sometimes think about unplugging completely and just doing our own thing, without any audience at all. But then I stop myself from getting too into it, because I guess in a way I feel like I’d be burdening you with things that are a little “too much,” be it negative or positive. And so I keep it simple and I keep a little bit more on the surface than I really could, and I am not sure if this is a good thing.”
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